"I didn't mean for it to happen this way."
"No,"
Drake said, storming across the room to the wardrobe. "You meant for me
to never find out. To go along blissfully unaware and... gods, do you
realize I defended you?! Thanks to you I've burned bridges I may find
myself desperate for one day. And for what?"
Logan crumpled
into a chair in the corner of the room. The inn was small, and they'd
had to share a room. "I'm sorry." The whisper was barely loud enough to
be heard over Drake's purposeful packing.
He looked up from
shoving a spare tunic into his pack. "Do you know what the worst part
is? The worst part is that I believed in you. Trusted you, with my
life!"
"I never betrayed that. I always protected you, just like you always
protected me. That's what friends do."
"But
you lied to me, Logan. In my book that destroys trust, not fosters it."
Drake turned to glare at his travel companion. Flushing under the
accusation, Logan suddenly became very interested in a knot in the
floor.
"It was just..."
"What, a small lie? For my own
protection? What defense have you come up with, Logan? How on earth do
you justify it to yourself that it was okay to lie to me?"
The
muttered reply did not go unnoticed, and Drake pounced on it. "A minor
omission, you claim? That's great. You don't even consider it a lie.
Well, I sure as hell do! And guess what, that's what's really
important. Cause now you've upset me, and now I'm going to leave,
Logan. I can't continue to travel with you now that..."
Drake
turned to look out the small window as his voice trailed off. The view
wasn't great, unless you like ancient birds nest built into the eaves
of decrepit buildings. Logan had noticed the mistiness of his eyes, and
knew to let Drake have a moment to compose himself. If interrupted he'd
only lash out stronger, and then would definitely not listen any
longer. Logan quickly wiped away tears as Drake turned back towards the
room. In as steady a voice as could be managed while fighting back
tears, Logan said, "I haven't changed. Not really. We could still
travel together..."
Drake looked up slowly into Logan's eyes. "Do you really think it would
be that easy for me to travel with you now?"
"But nothing's..."
"Yes, Logan, it has changed. You hurt me. I just need to go..." Drake
scooped up his pack and headed towards the door.
Logan got there first, and was now blocking the way. "Don't you think
this argument is a bit cliché, Drake?"
Drake glared at Logan. "Move."
"No, Drake. I'm not going to move until we get this resolved."
"You lied to me."
"Yes, Drake, I did."
Drake
looked at his travel companion, trying to gauge this new tactic. Logan
simply met his eyes, seemingly resigned. Drake's hand drifted to the
hilt of his dagger. Logan didn't flinch. They'd been traveling together
long enough for this action to be recognized for the nervous habit it
was. Drake looked down to the redwood hilt. It was a dagger Logan had
given him shortly after they began to travel together. He'd lost his
original, crappy knife saving Logan from bandits. Now it was very
likely neither of them would have the chance to pay back all the times
the other had saved them.
"You hurt me," Drake said, intently interested in picking at the inlay
in the dagger's handle.
Logan put a hand on Drake's, and waited for him to look up. "I'm sorry."
Drake
looked into the blue eyes before him. His heart was beating just a
little faster, accompanied by a familiar flutter in his stomach. He
couldn't pull his gaze away. Finally he found his voice. "It can't be
the same as it was."
"No, it can't"
"Because I know your secret now."
"I trust you not to tell anyone."
Drake pulled his hand from his knife, away from Logan's touch. "Why
didn't you tell me sooner?"
"Would you have let me travel with you if I did?"
"Of course not, I-"
"That's
why," Logan answered. "But now you know me better, you trust me, and
see that I can take care of myself. And you, if needs be."
Drake shook his head. "I... I was so confused," he whispered. "I
thought... I thought..."
Logan
had never seen the fighter so quiet, so lost. Logan prompted "You
thought..." in a voice that surprised both of them with the huskiness
in it.
"I don't know how long I've loved you. But now I know
you're a girl..." Drake searched Logan's eyes, silently begging for her
to understand without him having to say more.
The surprise in
her blue eyes was not unpleasant. "You... love me?" she asked when she
found her voice. Drake nodded solemnly. Logan looked at him for a
minute, then laughed. She gently pushed him back from her. "You almost
had me there for a minute, Drake. I almost believed you."
Drake laughed, a sheepish look on his face. "Yeah? Really? I could
tell. You actually looked nervous there for a minute."
Logan
ducked under Drake's arm, grabbing his pack as she did so, flinging it
onto the bed, and flinging herself down after it. "I guess it's only
fair to get back at me, for not telling you sooner." She rolled over to
look at Drake. "So are we okay, then? Things will go back to being
normal between us?"
Drake looked down at her. "Yeah," he said, and began unpacking his bag,
Logan watching, and both knowing it was a lie.
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