• Depression - Ramblings

    Depression Journaling

    People have told me here, and in various other forums, that they appreciate my candid discussion of my experiences with depression.  I hate that that is mostly what I am posting lately, but it is what I have the energy to deal with right now. Some mornings (or other particularly…

  • Goals - Library - Ramblings - Writing

    Self evaluation and review

    I work within the library system at the University of Florida. In effort to increase my professional development for my role there, I have been taking the Supervisory Challenge courses at UF (that is where the values survey that vexed me came from). In addition, I applied, and was accepted…

  • Depression

    Lies Depression Tells Me, 3

    “This is as good as it gets.” –  My Depression I know that I just haven’t found the right anti-depressant yet, but that doesn’t stop the pesky voice telling me that no matter what I try, it won’t work. For the record, the second anti-depressant a) didn’t work and b)…

  • Depression

    Lies Depression Tells Me, 2

    I went to the doctor today for a followup on how my anti-depressants are working. Not as well as I’d like – even with the higher dosage I still had almost two weeks worth of days in the three months where the depression either had me on the edge of…

  • Fiction - Goals - Library - Writing

    Writing To-Do List

    A few weeks ago I was going through containers in my office, and I decided to pull out all of my journals, morning pages and writing notebooks.  When I was done, I was surrounded by no fewer than 40 various sized notebooks, plus another 30 or so “fit in your…

  • Depression - Life - Ramblings

    Taking Compliments

    I have begun to see a therapist as treatment for my depression in conjunction with the medication I am on. Talking with her this week, taking compliments came up. I don’t take compliments well. That phrase sounds funny – like I get aggressive you you attempt to compliment me. And…

  • Depression

    Values and Depression

    I took a training class in Inspiring Trust yesterday as part of a series of 3-hour courses to earn a “Supervisory Challenge” certificate that is offered by the institution that employes me. One of the exercises in the class was to look at a list of about 70 values, mark…

  • Depression

    Lies depression tells me

    My depression lies to me. One of the lies it tells me is that I don’t do things right, up to and including depression. That is, it tells me that my depression is not the same experience others have (based on conversations and my reading), therefore it probably isn’t even…

  • Depression - Ramblings

    Coping Day

    Today is a coping day with regards to my depression. I’m still trying to figure this thing out, but I came to the realization that what I have accomplished thus far today is because I have many tools I’ve incorporated into my life to cope with the depression. Things that…