• Depression - Goals - Life - Ramblings

    Godot

    Invalid reasons that I put things I want to do on hold: What are you waiting for? For my meds to stabilize To hear back about the We Need Diverse Books mentorship application To hear back about the Futurescapes application * To hear back from job applications To feel like…

  • Depression - Writing

    NaNo WriMo 2015

    Sunday the calendar switches from October to November, and with it comes the start of National Novel Writing Month (NaNo WriMo). The goal is 50,000 words in 30 days – or an average of 1,667 words a day. For some this seems like a Herculean feat, particularly in a short…

  • Depression

    Lies Depression Tells Me, 5

    This one is cunning, because the lie here puts a spin on something that I actually believe. Something that I have read about, and put a bit of faith in due to personal experience. This lie is cunning because it twists the idea of being kind to oneself, of taking…

  • Depression

    Lies depression tells me, 4

      “You’re better, the anti-depressant is working. This funk you are in is only because of the weather.” So, it is overcast again today – has been for most days this past week. Most days this past week I have also felt down, and more like I’m sliding back to…

  • Depression - Ramblings

    Values revisited

    Back in August I wrote about Values and Depression, and how I was having problems with an exercise in one of my training classes, wherein I was supposed to look at a list of values, and pick the 5 values that I felt made up my core values. Well, I…

  • Depression

    Depression and Empathy

    One thing I hate about my depression: it breaks my empathy. This is hard for me because I care about the people in my life, and what is going on with them. I care to the point where I had to make a conscious effort a few years ago to…

  • Depression - Ramblings

    with eyes averted

    i’ve noticed something in myself the past several days i am finding it difficult to keep eye contact with (or even looking at the face of) the people i am talking to i’ve noticed i’m doing it not only with the in-person interactions i have engaged in, but also in…